I'm writing for Five Minute Friday and this week's prompt word is PURSUE.
When the Lord has you on a healing journey for any length of time, you start to realise how broken you are and you get fed up with that. There's a restlessness that drives you to pursue healing - whether it's body, mind, emotions, whatever.
And so you start to pursue some answers for your ills. Of course, if you're on any kind of social media platform, and click on something, you suddenly start getting a lot more similar posts showing up on your feed, because of the algorithm.
You get this expert saying to do this or don't do that, eat this or don't eat that! Then you get another expert saying almost the complete opposite, and yet another expert saying something just as confusing.
So you get fed up and give up because it's all too confusing and hard and moving forward seems impossible.
Is that what happened to the woman with the issue of blood, who spent 12 years pursuing her healing? She spent all she had on doctors, no doubt all claiming to know what would cure her.
And suddenly, a woman who had a flow of blood for twelve years came from behind and touched the hem of His garment. For she said to herself, “If only I may touch His garment, I shall be made well.” But Jesus turned around, and when He saw her He said, “Be of good cheer, daughter; your faith has made you well.” And the woman was made well from that hour. Matthew 9: 20-22
So what made her pursue Jesus, the ultimate Healer? Was it desperation? Was it that she'd run out of her own resources? Was it that she'd heard about Him and decided she had nothing left to lose?
To get healed, she had to pursue Him. She had to push through. She had to push through her exhaustion, her hopelessness, her lack of resources, the cultural taboos of her time. But honestly, she had nothing left to lose at that point. She was done anyway. She was alone, she was isolated, she was broke, she was spent, emotionally and physically. The Chosen portrays it well.
Do we have to wait till we're thoroughly spent before we will pursue Him for healing of any sort?
One of the things that the Lord impressed on me fairly early in this journey is that HE is the healer, and if I will pursue HIM first and foremost, He WILL show me what to do next, what to work on next, what to surrender next, what HE wants to do next.
He has been ready at each step and turn and frustration point to touch, to give counsel, to offer comfort, to guide me to the right person, resources, information that I need for that next step. If He had shown it all to me up front I would have been incredibly overwhelmed and given up.
That's the kind of Shepherd He is - just enough for what we need right now, though He knows the big picture and He's aiming for that too.
Lately I've been trying to figure out what my body needs to get well and stay well. I've been having lots of niggling symptoms of ill health and I'm a bit fed up because it's really impacting my ability to stay on top of my many responsibilities. And I can't put down any of them at this point, and I have sought Him about that, but He keeps bringing me back to getting on top of my health so I can do what He's given me to do.
He's been talking about learning His unforced rhythms of grace for me, for my family in this season, and that's been an interesting and unfolding revelation. He doesn't give us more than we can handle but sometimes He asks us instead to handle it better - to get stronger, wiser, educated, informed, etc.
At this point, a lot of being able to pursue all that He's giving me to do depends on getting on top of my health issues. So many people have said, 'Just find a decent doctor!'. Yep, I get that but I'm not getting a lot of success on getting a doctor to listen and run the right tests and actually give me the test results. I'm looking forward to engaging the services of the Christian naturopath that I have lined up, but that will have to wait until settlement is done and dusted, because that costs money.
Last week, as I was praying about it, yet again, I saw a picture unfolding. He often gives me pictures, sometimes as a dream, but mostly when I'm awake, and then the understanding of that picture gradually comes.
So, in the picture, He had given me all these containers, like food containers that you would put leftovers in to store in the fridge. Each container was a different colour and they were different sizes. I didn't count them, but there were quite a few. Each container was empty.
As I sought Him for an explanation, He started to show me what it was about. He showed me that I have all this information swirling around in my head, from various sources, and I'm not doing much of it because I just don't know what to do. So, He said to me, 'Each container needs filling with real knowledge on that particular mineral, supplement, vitamin, nutrient, exercise that your body needs. Do the research. Document it and learn it. Put the time in. It's important! You're investing learning time in your business. Invest learning time in your health. Fill the containers!!'.
Light bulb moment!! Wow!! Don't you love how specific His direction is for each of us?
So, that's what I'm doing. I dug out my vision journal that my dear friend Heidi gave me a while back, and it had some empty pages. I'm investing time in learning about one thing at a time and implementing that. Then the next thing and the next and so on.
Stay tuned to find out how it's going. This week's learning focus is on zinc because that's where I felt He led me to start. My body is showing many signs of being zinc deficient.
When we pursue the Healer, He becomes the source of our healing, our knowledge, our wisdom, our guidance, our strength.
Commit your works to the Lord,
And your thoughts will be established. Prov 16:3
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. Prov 3:5,6
But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. 1 Peter 5:10
God I look to You, I wont be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like You do
God I look to You, You're where my help comes from
Give me wisdom, You know just what to do
And I will love You Lord my strength
And I will love You Lord my shield
And I will love You Lord my rock
Forever all my days I will love You God